I’ve tried writing this post a couple of times today, but kept getting interrupted. Now both kids are finally in bed and I’m staring at the blank computer screen trying to think of what I’ve enjoyed in the Word recently that I can share. Truth be told, I’m having a hard time coming up with anything. The last couple of weeks have been filled with sickness, busyness, exhaustion, and just a bad case of the blahs for me. I have to confess that I haven’t been as diligent to get into the Word or that desperate to spend that personal time with the Lord in the mornings. When I don’t have that daily spiritual supply, things generally go downhill. It’s kind of like when you’re sick and you know you need to eat to get better, but you just have no appetite and no strength to get yourself to the fridge. Except that as all moms know, even when you’re sick and you don’t feel like eating, not feeding the kids is not an option. So for the sake of those little hungry mouths, you somehow find the energy and strength to drag yourself to the kitchen, to put that pot on the stove, to come up with something edible to fill those mouths…and in the process you’re somehow able to feed yourself as well.
This has been my experience both physically and spiritually. If it were not for my kids, I’d probably go through some days without eating…or at least not eating well. I think the same applies when you have spiritual children. When there are some that you are caring for, you often have to eat for their sake. When others come to you with spiritual needs, that in turn forces you to go to the Lord. I’m reminded of the parable in Luke about the person whose friend came to him at midnight to borrow three loaves. He didn’t have anything to offer his friend so he goes to another friend to ask for the food. That’s the context of Luke 11:9-10, verses that so many Christians love but probably misunderstand – “Ask and it shall be given to you; seek and you shall find; knock and it shall be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it shall be opened.” It doesn’t mean that if you ask for that new BMW you will receive it because the asking, seeking and knocking here is not for your own needs, but for the needs of others. If we ask and seek the Lord for the supply that we can minister to others, He will surely grant it to us. And the wonderful thing is that while we’re meeting the needs of others, our own needs get met as well.
So even though I don’t feel like it sometimes, I know somehow I need to get myself to open that Bible because that’s where the food is. I know I need to enjoy and process the word I read so that I can feed it to others. I know I need to be desperate in seeking the Lord because you never know when someone will come to your door at midnight in need of three loaves. Having hungry little mouths around you is the best cure for the case of the blahs.