The prompt for this week is…
Last night I had dinner with a friend and she told me about her sister-in-law who’s a military mom stationed in Alaska. Every year and a half her husband gets deployed for six months, leaving her home with four kids and a fifth on the way. They have no family in Alaska and she homeschools her kids. Last week I visited an old college friend who is also in the military. Both she and her husband are Airforce doctors. She had a baby two months ago while her husband was deployed. As I hear these stories, the only thing that I can say is, “I can’t imagine what that’s like.” I can’t imagine what it’s like to have your husband gone for so long, to have to raise your kids by yourself while he’s time zones away. I just can’t imagine it. Where do these women find the strength to bear it? My husband left on Tuesday for a five day trip and already I feel like it’s been too long. How do these women do it? How do they keep mothering every day and sleep alone at night? And I kept asking myself, “Could I ever do that?”
Someone once told me that the Lord would never put us in a situation where we don’t have enough grace. We might find ourselves in hard circumstances, but if we’re there because the Lord willed it, He will make sure the supply of grace is not only enough but even exceeds what we need. It all depends on whether we’re willing to come forward and take the grace. There will be times when we can’t bear it anymore, can’t take it anymore, and can’t even fake it anymore. That’s when we need grace. Grace is the Lord Himself within us, living in us to bear it, to take it, to not have to fake it.
Now I know why I can’t imagine it. I’m trying to apply the supply of grace I have to someone else’s situation and of course that doesn’t compute. The grace I have now is for where I am right now; it’s not less or more than what other’s have, it’s just different. There’s no need for me to try to imagine myself in some one else’s shoes. What I need to do is to take grace while walking in my own shoes, the daily grace that is very real and not at all imaginary.