Back when I was in the full-time training, toward the end of my fourth term, I remember being touched by a brother’s speaking concerning how we need to consecrate everything we are and have to the Lord. He shared that we needed to be specific in our consecration, giving everything to the Lord item by item. At that point in my life, because I had gone to the training right after graduating from college, I didn’t feel like I had very many “things” to consecrate. I was a young single sister, with no husband or kids, no job, not very many possessions, and at that point, still not too clear about what I was going to do after the training. The most I could say was, “Lord, I consecrate my future to you,” without really knowing what that meant.
I raised my concerns to the brother who shared this, and his response was a real help to me, and still is to this day. He said that actually, the best time to consecrate anything is before you have it, because once you have something in your hands, it gets harder to give it to the Lord. He said we can give the Lord all the things we don’t have (yet). So I practiced that one afternoon, while walking outside in the parking lot of the training center. I prayed to the Lord concerning all the things I hoped to have one day – my car, my husband, my children, my job, my house – consecrating each one to the Lord item by item.
When I actually got some of those things, the Lord was very faithful to remind me of what I prayed. I still remember how the Lord spoke to me concerning my first car. I was living and working in NY at the time and some new ones, who lived about 45 minutes away, needed a ride to the meetings. I didn’t want to be the one to have to pick them up, but the Lord spoke to me very clearly, “This car you have belongs to me, not you. Don’t you remember consecrating it to me?” So I drove the 45 minutes, and it was a real blessing and privilege to serve the saints in that way.
In recent days, the Lord has been reminding me again of the consecration I made more than ten years ago. Now He is speaking to me about something much more precious than a car. The Lord (and Larry) has to constantly remind me that Christopher is not our possession, but that he belongs to the Lord. As a mother, my primary concern is his welfare, that he eats well and sleeps well. Sometimes I’m tempted to cut out some of my church life activities, for the sake of preserving Christopher’s sleep schedule. I’m filled with motherly anxiety about how he’ll do if we have the meetings in our home, if we take him to this meeting, or this reteat or this training. But to be honest, most of the time it’s because I don’t want to go to the meetings; I just use him as my excuse. In fact, the times when we just put the Lord first are the times when CC is the least fussy. So the Lord’s word is true – if we seek first His kingdom, all these things will be added to us. Hopefully though, we will remember to consecrate all “these things” back to Him.